The Honeymoon Is Over

I miss my kids. This is their sixth day of school and, as they say, the honeymoon is over. The first day was hard; I cried a lot. But after that, once I realized that they were both happy at school, I started to enjoy the luxuries of having only one child at home. I can write out a to-do list and accomplish everything on it. I can exercise and shower every day. I can go out without herding a zoo. Today, though, I feel like it's the first day all over again. I would gladly take the chaos and inconveniences of having three kids at home to the loneliness that comes with only having a baby at home. Noah's great, but he can't really hold a conversation or make much noise. The house is so dang quiet. And so, I spent about 15 of my 30 minutes on the elliptical in tears again this morning (I guess it's a good thing I don't go to the gym...). And I've spent most of my time since then in tears, too. I just miss Nate and Abbie so much. I'm so glad it's Friday.