Sometimes I Think Too Much

So yesterday and today have been days spent with friends. Yesterday morning, Melissa, Michelle, Ginnie and their kiddos came over for a playdate. It was fun and I have pics--I just haven't gotten them to the computer yet. After naps, my kids were like beasts, so I called Melissa and we went over there for the afternoon. This morning, I went visiting teaching at Rachel's house. Her neighbors, Ginnie and Mandi, were outside with their kids too. It was so nice to be around lots of people, especially after returning from vacation and having Alan start Intern year all at once. These past couple of days have shown more a little bit more about myself than I knew before. I always knew that I did better around other people, but I didn't realize how much I actually needed it. My days go so much better when I have social things planned. I found myself thinking this morning how nice it would be to live on Ascot Lane, where I was VT and where half of our ward lives, just to have people around all of the time. Granted, we'd give up our home, air conditioning, yard, some privacy, space, etc., but it seems so worth it to have a community of people in similar stages of life nearby at all times. You Ascot Ln. ladies will have to tell me if I'm crazy :) I have also realized how important it is to have good friends. I am talking about friends who you can call at the drop of a hat and say, "My afternoon sucks. Can I come over?". Friends who you can hang out with day in and day out without feeling like they're judging you for not being so independent. I am immensely grateful to have found friends like that here in Madison. I honestly don't know where I'd be otherwise. I know that some people find being a SAHM easy. I know that some people have easygoing kids and some people have "spirited" ones. Maybe that's part of it. I just know that I have both and I don't find staying home with my kids easy. I enjoy it, yes, but it is a challenge, every day. Thank goodness for friends who understand and feel the same way. Speaking of being a SAHM, I cried at lunch today. Abbie went down for her nap a little early, while Nate and I were still eating lunch because she woke up before 6 this morning. I was just sitting at the table with Nate and realized that I only have TWO more months before he starts school. I am going to miss my little man so much. Oh boy, here come the tears again. He is such a good person. He's kind and gentle and obedient (most of the time). I just love him so much and I don't know what I'm going to do without him around. My baby... Life is interesting, isn't it? Playing the game of what if--Like I said before, sometimes I think too much.