Sometimes I Wonder

What kind of world do we live in? Every now and then, something happens, not always something huge, but just something that shocks me. It's like I wake up and see clearly what I must have been ignoring or just turning away from somehow. It happened today. My godmother, who I absolutely love and adore, has a granddaughter in college in TX. I can remember when her granddaughter, Amanda, was a baby. We always got together when I would visit TX growing up. I just found out that one of Amanda's good friends from high school, her first boyfriend, died. He had a very rare condition, a complication of the Epstein Barr Virus, the virus that causes Mono. While I didn't know Josh, my heart just breaks. I am so sad for his family, his friends, everybody who knew him. It just seems so cruel to sentence such a young man to death. It's something I definitely don't understand. I didn't know Josh. I've never met him. But my heart is broken. I can't remember the last time that tears streamed down my face like they are right now. Suddenly this world, this world that I've been in for 28 years, just doesn't seem right again. It's happened before. But still, it's like a slap in the face. How could Abbie being up 3 times in the middle of the night have caused me such duress last night? Perspective. Things like this put life in perspective. I am so grateful for my family. I am so grateful for my friends. I am so grateful for my life--I am so blessed. I complain a lot. Definitely more than I should. But I am blessed. Hug your S.O. tonight. Hug your children. Remember how blessed we really are. Josh's family and friends will be in my prayers tonight. I ask that they might be in yours too.