It's Time

After a while of not posting about it, it may appear that my Twilight addiction has finally begun to fade. Appear would be the key word in that sentence. Mwa-ha-ha. I have finally accepted it for what it is, though. I no longer regard this as an obsession. I am beyond that. This is an addiction. I asked Alan if he thought that I needed addiction counseling, but he insists that since the addiction is not having negative consequences in my life, I'm okay. I saw a t-shirt the other day that said, "Please feed me. My mom is reading Twilight again." Maybe we should ask Abbie and Nate about those negative consequences...

I've been trying to keep my Twi-thoughts to myself because I realize that I am definitely the most obsessed person that I know. In my honesty in motherhood post, I talked about screening what I write on my blog, but everybody said to just write whatever I want. So really, it's your fault that Twilight is reemerging here. I warned you...

I have never in my life been this obsessed with something. Seriously. Twilight permeates almost every thought that I have. It's completely ridiculous, actually. Here's a little insight into my madness--Today, I dropped our exersaucer off at a friend's house for her son to borrow. They live in Eagle Heights near Lake Mendota. It was a cloudy day and as I drove around the back by the lake, all I could think of was Bella cliff diving in La Push. Every single song I hear on the radio reminds me of Twilight.

Beyonce's Halo--JACOB!:

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night

Kelly Clarkson's My Life Would Suck Without You--Edward and Bella-New Moon:

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again
Cuz we belong together now, yea
Forever united here somehow, yea
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go,

Jason Mraz's Lucky--Isle Esme-Breaking Dawn:

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see

I think you get the picture. It's not just the little things. Our neighbor is a single dad from Oregon (Pacific NW, like Twilight), whose daughter goes to kindergarten with Nate. I had a dream that he was a vampire and now I can't quite talk to him the same. When it rains, I think it's a good day for Edward. The other day we were at the pharmacy drivethru at Walgreens and Alan said (in a very melodramatic voice), "Jacob is in the car next to us." I tried to tell him not to egg me on (see right there--I think about Bella craving eggs in Breaking Dawn) and to quit supporting my addiction. But he was emphatic that Jacob was in the backseat of the car next to us. Finally, I looked. There was this massive wolf-dog. Even my family feeds the obsession.

Okay. The first step is acknowledging that you have a problem, right? How's having read Twilight 12 times? New Moon 8 times? Eclipse 5 and Breaking Dawn 4? I told you it was bad. Really bad. The good news is that the new prophylactic medication that I started for my migraines is also very effective for alcohol addiction. I'm hoping it is just effective for addictions in general...

Some ridiculous youtube videos...