Motivation...Procrastination

I've been thinking a lot recently about purpose. Mainly, what is my purpose here? Sometimes (right now) I feel like I'm just floundering around, not really getting anywhere. I guess that I've always been a goal-oriented person. I function well under pressure. I thrived in college where there were tests and deadlines, etc. Being a nurse was good too because, well, babies come when babies come! Shifts start and end at a set time. But this mothering and homemaking thing is hard! Everything is so open-ended. The days and nights (and then days again) blend into each other. Heck, the weeks and months blend into each other. So I guess I'm struggling to figure out how to motivate myself to do everything that I need/want to do when there's no real deadline. (Yes, I realize that this screams procrastinator.) My house will be shiny clean if we are having company over for dinner, but during the week when it's just Nate and Abbie and me at home--Pff! How do I fill my day with meaningful activities? What do I fill my day with? How do I make myself do these things when I don't technically "have to?"

Ramblings of the queen of procrastination. In college, I used to drive my roommate (and fellow nursing student) insane because I wouldn't study for tests until 4AM the morning of the test. I wouldn't start papers until 9PM the night before and then I would quit at 11, only to get up at 4 or 5 to finish. I struggle to do things when they don't absolutely have to be done. I know that this is not a good habit, but it's how I function. I wonder how I can learn to live this lifestyle around that lifestyle....