The Last Week

I had a bad experience. I said, I HAD A BAD EXPERIENCE! Early in the week, I experienced some severe chest pain. After my experience with Pneumonia/surgery last year, I tend to be a little paranoid about chest pain. I went to the doctor that afternoon and had an X-ray. They said that there was no pneumonia, but possibly some scar tissue causing the pain. I was given Flexeril, a muscle relaxant and told to continue taking Ibuprofen regularly. For the next few days, I took the Flexeril. Suddenly, seemingly out of nowhere, I entered into one of the deepest, darkest depressions I've ever experienced. I was irritable, angry, sad and extremely suicidal. Things were very very bad. I ended up cutting my arm (something that I've done before when depressed, not as an attempt to commit suicide)--I cut it worse than I've ever done before. Like usual, after cutting, I felt some relief and some clarity in my mind. I got on the internet and did a little research. Apparently, in less than 1% of the population, Flexeril can cause depression. I was already in contact with my psychiatrist and spoke to her about the possibility that this was a drug induced depression. She did some research as well and agreed that I was probably right. She said that in 3-5 days, I should be feeling better. Well it's been a few days now and I am 180 degrees from where I was. I am so grateful for the friends who helped me this week. I was told that I would be "hunted down" if I didn't call and I cannot express how much it meant to me to have people to talk to who truly understood and cared what I was going through. The first thing that I do when I get depressed is to isolate myself, so thank you to those of you who made me leave the house. Needless to say, I will NEVER take Flexeril again--Ibuprofen is good for me!